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#2 It Feels Like Something Stuck Just Got Unstuck

I had the fortnightly conversation with EJ once more and this time, the topic at hand was really deep, although tonight, the conversation didn't just involve myself but a close friend of mine. Two things I wanted out of tonight's session: a. Process the confusion and underlying emotions b. Establish boundaries for supporting the friend that is so dear to me Some really sad news was shared with me and while I encouraged my friend and was there for him, deep inside a flurry of emotions stewed. I finally managed to unpack the confusion: 1. Anger 2. Sadness 3. Shock 4. Blame (hidden behind the shock) Anger came as a result of the desire to protect my friend from the perpetrators. Sadness came as a result of connecting with the pain that resulted from the horrific events, and my own powerlessness. Shock came as a result of the sudden spurt of vulnerability that came out. Blame came as a result of not having that "sixth sense", and that, "I should have ...
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#1 New Beginnings

It's been over 10 years since my last blog post ever. Milestone #1 - First bible study with my precious ba (Ba is an endearing term that somehow replaces all other terms between Feli & I, through an interesting series of happenings) Bible study flow: Adoration - 1 praise or worship song Bible - 1 bible reading and sharing session Communion - Holy Communion session First session we had was on the Parable of the Prodigal Son, Luke 15:11-32.  (We actually really only shared to verse 24) Here are some revelations we had: 1. The son made a decision to go back to his father, *BUT* the father was the one who ran to him and showered him with love and acceptance. 2. The way we see the world & God is not the same as the way, He sees the world, and us. He sees us in love and is always anticipating our return with enthusiasm. His acceptance is complete and His heart is for us and our good because He loves us completely. Perhaps the struggle and self-condemnation in o...
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